The process of owning who I am
I recently took the Enneagram test and shortly afterward found myself down the rabbit hole of the 16 Personalities and the Myers-Briggs. The Enneagram is an identifying system that helps participants better understand their innate motivations and tendencies. After taking the test, I couldn't get the information out of my head. I was and still am so, so thirsty to understand myself.
I read a book by Ian Cron titled The Road Back to You and when I journal in the mornings, it’s all about wrestling with my identity. If there’s anything I’ve learned since having kids, it’s that I’m pretty much totally confused about who I am.
Motherhood has fundamentally led me to question my identity more than any other single thing in my life.
At the ripe age of as-long-as-I-could-remember, my dad asked big questions and talked to me about big things. My mom recounts me including war torn countries and national tragedies in my nightly prayers because current events were included in our dinner conversations before I even entered school.
Staying in-the-know has been a backdrop of my life since I was little without me even knowing it. I went to journalism school for my undergrad at Arizona State University with very little understanding of the industry I was getting into, but with a strong passion for learning and communicating. It was a no-brainer, really.
So, how does this at all relate to my new normal of work/kids/writing/family/all the things? Well, I didn't just stop being me when I got married, or had kids, or started working on my own clock. I still crave to keep up with current events.
Here's a quick and dirty list of the ways I keep up with our nation and the world's happenings.
Top Headlines from Apple - Morning Coffee
I know the mighty algorithm game is guiding what headlines pop up in my top Apple News but for the sake of at least being aware of the basics before 9a, I take a peek at the morning's top news in my phone. I took a second when I got my phone a few months ago to pick my top sources. I haven't adjusted it yet, but for now it's working just fine. Just swipe right and you're golden, friends.
A year ago I took a huge leap of faith and transitioned to part-time consulting from home so I could be with my boys. I've learned a lot in the process. The transition has taught me a lot of logistical things (i.e. never leave the house without snacks) and a lot of mental things (self-care is a requirement).
If there is anything I've learned more about myself in the last year, it is that I have an insatiable appetite for the word 'yes.' Sometimes, this appetite can get in the way of self-care, loving my spouse, or recognizing my weaknesses. Other times, it has served me well as a vehicle to learn new things, meet new people, and get out of my comfort zone.
A year ago this month, I transitioned from my relatively short stint as a full-time consultant into a full-time gig at the Arizona Educational Foundation. This decision was based on many longterm goals, well thought out plans, and a desire to make a difference. But don't let that responsible answer fool you-- I also chose to say yes.
I believe-- whole heartedly-- that saying yes is the root to the tree of great fruit. I believe that saying yes and then figuring out how to do what you said yes to is a gift to yourself. It's another way of telling yourself, "(Insert name), you've freaking got this. Say yes!"